Anti-Amy

I know I'm not the most social of creatures. I'm not even very good at trying to be.

I just get around people and my brain sort of shuts down. I don't mean to be as awkward as I am but it happens.

But there are some people who just sort of highlight my awkwardness. Who being around is hard because it reminds me just how much I'm not like them. Who try to bring me into the conversation but only in a way that mentions me, not exactly invites me to talk as well.

It's hard. And it makes parties unbearable.

-Amy

Moral Support

Things I don't understand:

Needing moral support to go and get a haircut.

I get being super fond of your long hair. I had wicked long hair that I wouldn't even trim in high school. It was long and it was double-tapped right in the skull dead but I wouldn't even think of trimming it.

But then I went and hacked it all off. And I went by myself.

You don't need moral support for a typical hair cut. It's a hair cut. It's hair. You're cutting your hair not donating an organ.

Just go and do it if that's what you want.

-Amy

SF Amy Hiatus

So, I've been debating an SF Amy hiatus. I used to have fun doing these comic strips every week but they just sort of feel like chore. And I don't think they're as good as they used to be. They've become so much of the same thing, Amy hunting bugs or stupid one panels of conversations that I had with co-workers that they don't even remember.

I was so diligent about posting for so long and lately I've really let it slip. Maybe I was subconsciously telling myself to take a break.

Maybe I'll do them every other week or maybe just when I feel like it. It's not like I really have a fan base who's waiting for them.

And maybe that's another thing, maybe they just feel thankless. I started the blog when friends from school told me they missed seeing her and I don't think any of them read it anymore.

And I have so many other things to do. So much other stuff I want to do.

I feel like it makes sense but I also feel like I'm failing, like I'm giving up. And I hate that. I hate feeling like that. Feeling like I can't do something.

I guess we'll see.

-Amy

Moments

Sometimes at work I have these moments where I feel like I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. Where everyone and everything is simultaneously just right. Where I get pulled into an in-joke just be walking past and it occurs to me that they might not find me as obnoxious as I think they do.

They're kind of brilliant moments.

-Amy

Home

This song always reminds me of being home and of my sisters and Laura and Mike and Dusty.
And sometimes of being at school and Krissa and Brittany, and even sometimes Justine.

I miss this.







-Amy

Hockey

I watched my first NHL game today. The first game in the Stanley Cup finals.

It was awesome.

Why haven't I watched hockey before?

Triple overtime.

Fucking Chicago.

-Amy

Oh Hey Theme Song

Ugh.

Okay so this totally isn't right but parts of it are. Damn it.

-Amy