I know I'm not the most social of creatures. I'm not even very good at trying to be.
I just get around people and my brain sort of shuts down. I don't mean to be as awkward as I am but it happens.
But there are some people who just sort of highlight my awkwardness. Who being around is hard because it reminds me just how much I'm not like them. Who try to bring me into the conversation but only in a way that mentions me, not exactly invites me to talk as well.
It's hard. And it makes parties unbearable.